Missed you a lot today

I kept myself very busy today, I know we were suppose to go to the Renaissance Festival's Chocolate and Wine this weekend.  It is always hard when I remember all the things we had planned and they just keep slipping by not done.  We were also suppose to go to France this month, wander the countryside, watch the world go by as we drank coffee.

I went shopping and saw some very sexy lingerie, I was so tempted to buy it, so I could wear it for you.  I stopped myself, I got a little over-whelmed at the reminder that I don't know when I'll see you again.  Then I tried on this very pretty blouse and as I looked in the mirror my first thought was I can't wait to wear this for you.  I stood their in front of the mirror and cried.  I'm so very tired Sir, I am trying to be strong.

Sometimes I think I can feel you near me, whispering in my ear, holding me tight.  I long for the times when you would take a fist full of my hair and turn my head so you could mark me with your teeth and tongue, when you held me down to take me from behind and made me cum like I never have before.  The feel of you marking my back and cumming inside me. 

I woke up the other day from a dream of you holding me so tightly and telling me you were back now and you'd never let me go.  I woke up and my heart felt shredded at the sense of loss.  Sometimes my heart feels so heavy even breathing seems difficult.

Please hurry, I miss you and your family.  I have things for you and your family , I've been keeping them safe until we are together again.

Love you Sir